Feeling inferior

I am having inferiority complex.

I feel that I am very very lazy. I lack discipline, determination to succeed and I am not hardworking enough compared to my peers at school. Everyday I go to school, I see them in the library doing their work, finding resources for assignments and lab reports. Where as I, walks here and there doing absolutely nothing but day dream all day. If only I am as hardworking as them, I would have ruled Monash University.

I feel really really bad for those who worked so hard for a project, assignment or lab report but scores lower than me, when I only do them a day before the due date. It is unfair for them. Why can't the lecturer give them higher? They have put in so much effort in completing their work. Life should be fairer.

I should also be more hardworking and be more determined to succeed in life and in producing better pieces of work. I should be scoring better than what I have been scoring now. I have paid so much for this degree and so I must work hard and complete it with excellent results.

I need someone to push me. I need someone to motivate me. I need someone to push me real hard. I think I need someone to *toktok* me. I need to move my ass and start studying!!!!!!

Gaah!!!!!

GOD, HELP ME!!!

Small talks:
*[7/29/2008 11:49:26 PM] Gillian Keong says: It's normal 2 b notty.*
*[7/29/2008 11:49:57 PM] Gillian Keong says: U may b a genius, but u'r stil a kid.*

Somehow I find that the above statements are quite true.