Peter Pan

"Peter Pan is a mischievous boy who flies and magically refuses to grow up."

In my dreams and in reality, I find myself following the footsteps of Peter Pan. The reason so is because I want to feel loved all the time; being cared for and loved by others. Ironically, everywhere I go, people tend to treat me as the "baby". I didn't ask for it but I do not repent it either. I sort of enjoyed it. Why do people treat me this way? I seriously have no idea. But the question now is, should I stay this way or should I give up being "Peter Pan" and start growing up and be independent and not depend on anyone anymore? Will I be able to cope with such big changes in the blink of an eye? Honestly, I have a lot to learn in life at this point. There are many minute things which I have no idea how to handle; for instance, I have never withdraw money from an ATM. Neither have I personally deposited money in the bank. And if anyone asked me how to do it, I seriously don't know. At this age, I am seriously a spoilt brat. Time to make a change perhaps? But who is going to guide me through all these? I am as blur as a kitten. Sigh.

*I know it's gonna be real hard to change things.*

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*edits* @ 2.03am

There is no use telling things. I tried telling but nobody even bother listening. No one responded to my cries, so why bother telling? Save my breaths and it proves my theory right. It's better keeping quiet. There is this thing which always goes around in my mind, a thought which I am tempted to find an answer for. If I am in pain and in trouble, will anyone ever help me? Will it be that when they do actually respond to my helpless cries, I would have already been dead? This question have been playing in my mind for years. But it was never answered. I never manage to find the answer. I hope I will someday. Well for those knew about this question, they might respond "Oh of cos we will help you, you're my friend. We will come to your aid." Yeah right, it's easier said than done. Empty promises are easy to make. True promises are hard to keep.

One question though, am I very demanding to have ask for all these? Will I be considered annoying if I text my friends when I have urgent matters to handle in which I needed help with?

*On the verge of breaking down*