Unwanted

Sometimes I wonder to myself, if I am ever wanted in this world
From being sick as a child, I strive to prove that I am not weak
Trying to stand out in school, I studied as hard as I possibly can
And when I don't get what I hoped for, I'm crushed

Sometimes we can't avoid failure
and over time, I got used to it.
Failure has been a part of me since high school
and no matter what I do, it doesn't seem enough.

Sometimes I do wish I was not born
But to think about the joy my parents had
when I was the first baby they claimed their own
And it breaks my heart to even think of not being born
How can I be so ungrateful to my parents
When all they have done, was to shower love

Sometimes it is hard to fight the thought of death
And what death can do to the people around us
Sometimes things just don't work out as we wanted
And death seems to be the only way

Sometimes all I wanted, is for someone to listen
Listen to the things that have been bothering me
But it is hard to find someone who would genuinely listen
And not judge you for who you're not
With that, I keep everything bottled up inside
For years and years it stayed in my heart
Not knowing when it will explode