Flashback

Dear bloggie,

He said it again. And each time he says it, it hurts me even deeper. He didn't realize that when he mentioned that, it brings me back to the time when I was little; when mommy said the exact same words to me. "Don't call me mommy if you don't listen to what I say." Although it was slightly different, the feelings were the same. The feeling of unwanted-ness. It makes me feel like I am alone in my world. As if no one is there with me. As if, I am in a completely empty world. No one is there but me. I tried, and I tried hard, to do and obey them as much as possible. I admit sometimes I am rebellious and playful, but never have I thought that I would disappoint them. Never. I wish they knew it wasn't intentional. They mean a lot to me and I will never hurt them. Never in my entire life. Do you think they will forgive me, bloggie? I sure hope they will. I wish they knew that I love them very very much.

Signing off,
Eve