Gathering

Today is the gathering. I wanted to go. Badly. I really do. I tried sneaking out of the house just to see them. Just to be able to socialize again, and be my bubbly self. However, I failed on both planned attempts, and the third one as well. Daddy was furious. It was the first time he spanked me. He has never spank me before. Never once. I guess my actions really hurt him a lot. I know he loves me, and I love him too. But I just wanted to see them. It has been months since I last hanged out with my friends. I want to be around friends again. It's depressing being alone all day at home. At least in the hospital, I get to play with the kids. Not that I love being in the hospital, I don't. I just....I just want to be out and free. Just like before.

I miss the old days.